Besides posting fashion related posts, this year I also want to share a lot more personal posts; talking about things that I'm passionate about and have helped me grow throughout the years. The purpose of these kind of posts is to help you guys through difficult situations or provide you with a new perspective.

These past few months, I have noticed a lot of negativity being circulated everywhere. Be it from politics to typical personal drama, all this negativity has been getting to me. There have been multiple occasions where I have also been negative. Now when I say I'm being negative, I don't mean I'm showing negativity towards anyone, it's more of me being negative towards myself. Instead of focusing on all the good things that have been going on in my life, I have been focusing on all the bad things; giving the bad things the power to cloud my judgement. 

Maybe it's because I've recently went through a lot of changes in my life and am struggling with adapting to new things, but no matter what it is I cannot deny that it is the one and only reason why I have lost motivation to do a lot of things. To make things worse, me knowing that I've lost my motivation has me feeling more negative. Instead of taking a step forward in life, this negative mindset has been making me take two steps backwards. 

This all has now got me thinking: why can't I get out of this cycle? I tend to overthink things and that is exactly what I'm doing when I start to feel negative. Overthinking is the reason. 

Now some of you might be thinking "Elvina, if you know why you're in this cycle, why not just stop overthinking?" Well, it's easier said than done. We all overthink things in life, it takes a lot to not overanalyze things and tackle things head first. With my personality type, I like to have some time to think about my options before making a decision because I want to be careful. There's nothing wrong with being careful, but if you always play it safe you're going to miss out on what life has to offer.

Honestly speaking, I'm not 100% sure where I am going with all of this. In my case, I'm fully aware of what's going on, but I guess I have not fully accepted it to be able to move on and start building myself again. And that's okay. Things will take time. I'd rather be certain that I am okay before jumping back into the routine of things and continuing my journey. I know that I'm pondering on all the negative things in my life, but like I  said before, the reason why is because I'm not ready to drop it and move forward. For now, my battle isn't to find my motivation or completely free myself from negativity, my battle is to be okay. To be okay with change. Once I'm okay, motivation will come back naturally and that will lead to all my negative energy fading away.

I guess the message I want to leave with you guys in this post is that things take time. You cannot expect or force things to always be great. Sometimes you have to go through hardships to be able to grow and reach your goals. What you're feeling at this very moment is not insufficient, don't give anyone the power to tell you otherwise. Give yourself the power and recognition to be able to get through whatever it is that has you feeling negative or upset because at the end of the day no one can take that feeling away except for yourself.